Jenny La Fontaine
There must be more to life … but what? Where?
When I got married I thought I had found my soulmate. 20 years later I was miserable. I felt beaten down, like everything was my fault even though I was trying everything I could find to ‘save’ our marriage.
I knew there was more to life and that I wouldn’t find it in the conventional world. But I doubted myself terribly. I was constantly second guessing so I never really got anywhere. I did numerous self-help trainings but the high after a weekend event was usually gone by the end of the week. Others got results. Why couldn’t I? What was wrong with me?
Women in their 50’s and 60’s often question themselves – I did!
In my coaching practice and amongst my friends I see women in their 50’s, 60’s and even 70’s go through a similar experience of questioning. The causes are different – an unhappy relationship, work that isn’t fulfilling or their body just isn’t what it used to be. Bottom line for so many women is ‘There must be more to life than this’ and it is now urgent to find the answers.
Side note: Younger women, and men, may also question but not always with the same urgency. If this is you then you have an opportunity to find these answers NOW. Don’t ignore the call!
At 50 I didn’t feel ‘old’ and physically I was just fine. It was more like an alarm clock that rings and can’t be turned off. Now I see it was a REALLY good thing because when I found the answers they were profound and more amazing and wonderful than I could ever have imagined.
What I did feel was that here I was at 50 with nothing to show for my life. Of course that wasn’t true. I had 2 lovely children, had been successful with Herbal medicine, moved from the UK to the USA, traveled extensively all around the world etc etc. But it FELT as if I had achieved nothing. At 52 my marriage was over, I had no career, no income and even lost the house to foreclosure in the real estate slump.
When I learned to love myself the magic began to happen
After 50+ years of self-doubt and judgment it seemed impossible to love myself. I was a mess – how could I ever love that? So even though I was told so many times I ‘should’ love myself – I gave up.
Still I kept taking tiny little steps. Floundering in the dark with no clear road map. Two steps forward, one step back. But very gradually things began to change. One morning I woke up and realized I actually felt OK about myself! I KNEW I was OK – just the way I was. I could actually say I loved myself. WOW!
I felt good about myself and my life even though really nothing had changed. I still had no career or income and was living in a rented house with my 2 children. But I was happy – REALLY happy!
Then the magic started to happen.
Perhaps most importantly my relationship with my children improved dramatically. There is nothing more special and heart warming than to feel close to your children. It isn’t rocket science – when you improve your relationship with yourself ALL your other relationships improve.
There was more magic too.
Now I think this next part is different for everyone. This is the point at which you find your own purpose and specific skills and talents. For me it was connecting to Guidance. Initially it was Babaji, then Archangels, Jesus, Yogananda and many others especially when I was working with clients and their own spirit guides would show up. They are my teachers, my mentors and my friends and they continue to bring amazing insights both to me personally and to my clients as we work together.
Now I work with Spirit Guidance to help my clients get answers
Now I delight in working with Spirit Guidance to help my clients KNOW that they are OK – just the way they are. They gain self-confidence and no longer feel lost. They know themselves and what they want and life becomes easier and far more fun! Loving Yourself Fully is when the magic begins to happen.
More official Bio Stuff!
In case you are wondering if I am French (La Fontaine means the fountain in French) ……. I am actually originally English. I was born in Malmesbury, Wiltshire in the UK and lived in Wantage (at school), Oxford, London and Shropshire near the border with Wales and moved to the USA (Arizona and now Oregon) in the early ‘90’s.
I read Physiology at University in London (Bedford College in beautiful Regent’s Park) because I didn’t know what else to do. Then I discovered Herbal Medicine and went on to do a 4 year training to become a Member of the National Institute of Medical Herbalists. Practicing Herbal Medicine was as much intuitive for me as it was knowledge based. I was a good practitioner because I listened and then educated my clients so they could see what was possible and had hope again.
When I listen to you, your Guides give me the answers
A valuable lesson for me was when I was in my 4th and final year of training as a Herbalist and I was very sick myself. I had Ulcerative Colitis very severely. I lost huge amounts of weight and ended up in hospital 4 times on steroids and blood transfusions! Interesting times for a student of alternative Medicine!
However I learned that as the ‘patient’ I knew far more about my condition than a Doctor who had never had it. So I discovered that when I really listened to my clients they gave me the answers I needed to be able to help them. Hmm ….. sounds just like what I do now except now I listen to their Spirit Guides as well!
In my 20’s and 30’s I went to self-esteem trainings, the Loving Relationships Training (LRT) and even dabbled in the idea of physical immortality! It was all fun but the ‘changes’ never seemed to last long. Now, looking back I can see I was really looking for unconditional love and acceptance and for that ‘something’ that was beyond the conventional human experience.
(It took another 30 years but I FOUND IT!!)
Having kids changes everything!
We were living in Arizona by then and my focus shifted to more mundane worldly things like diapers (nappies!), schools, being mum, wife, driver, cook, cleaner and my social life revolved around other mums, dads and their kids.
My father died when I was 51 and I was thrust back into looking for that all important ‘something’. I was already unhappy in my life and marriage and losing my father really caused me to question everything. He was a lovely man, an English gentleman, a brilliant and successful artist with a great sense of humor. I rarely remember him being angry or criticizing me. My parents’ marriage was in stark contrast to my own and at 51 I clearly remember thinking “I deserve better than this”.
I was desperate…… and I was given a dream
I still tried everything I knew to ‘save’ the marriage. Finally in desperation I silently cried out for help. That night I had a dream and the answer was crystal clear. It took several more years and tons of searching, trainings and very challenging times before I finally felt good about myself again. The magic then showed up in a profound connection with Spirit Guidance – just as I had experienced so clearly that night that I had the dream, but now it was permanent.
I was guided to move to Bend in Central Oregon and found a wonderful community here. Now I live in a beautiful home on 7 acres with my two young adults. I love gardening, hiking and playing pickleball. Last year I fulfilled a 30 year dream and created a natural swimming pond. It is 50 feet in diameter and 6 ½ feet deep. It is like swimming in a pristine lake that is just a few steps from the house!